...then the world breaks in with something you haven't prepared for. Over the past week a close friend lost his brother, another close friend relapsed and is beginning his recovery journey all over, and today a very close friend received that dreaded doctor call saying they've found a problem.
I was doing okay with the first two but the last one kicked me hard. Here I am preparing for the trip of a lifetime and then the bottom drops out. All the thoughts, which I'm sure you have all experienced, start running through your head. Should I go? Should I come home early? Should, should, should...I call this shoulding on myself.
Over my 54 years of life I have perfected shoulding on myself. Yet today there was a difference. I stopped it before it got out of control. The stopping is a gift that God has given over the past year. Stopping is all about what the Apostle Paul calls "taking every thought captive." Today I stopped and actually thought about my thoughts. If you know me well I'm sure you are shocked. Paul goes on to say "and make it obedient to Christ." Making it obedient, is all about trusting Jesus.
I'm still deeply concerned about my friend and the journey of tests, surgery, post-op treatments that they will have to go through, yet I know that Jesus is still the Lord of all and I trust him to give the peace that passes all understanding.
So I keep preparing for this next journey within the life journey that Jesus has called me to take. Please pray that I can stay focused on the preparation, yet not be so focused that I lift up my friend and be there to help carry the burden.
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