What About Me

I began the week talking all about preparation and then the reality of "today" butted into my preparations. Since my last post and my life being interrupted (I use this word because I'm still selfish) by my friend who is facing cancer, my world was further interrupted by my son's near tragic car accident on Tuesday. He's fine and the other driver is fine, yet the wanting to keep preparing and not being able to began to wear on me. I started having thoughts of "what else is going to happen" and even thoughts challenging God to go help others with their spiritual growth, I needed a break.
Just about the time I was sinking deeply into feeling sorry for myself I received an email from a friend, who has seen me through many painful times over the past two years The email called me out. He simply said, remember that this is never about you, it is always about God and others. I know that some of you may be going, but you're a pastor and you should know that. I'm also horribly addicted to sin and continue to recover from that addiction. So once in awhile I need a reminder that God wants to prepare me. Not what I'm going to take, but the guy that's going to haul the bags.
What I take on my trip is important to me, but who I am as I go on this trip is far more important to God. Will I trust God in my preparations? Will I trust God to help me take advantage of all the moments He has already planned for me from August 5 through September 2. And will I enjoy the next 11 days before I go, and trust that He has everything under control?
Who does God want me to be on this trip? And yes I'm taking suggestions. This may be your only chance. So let me know...